Completed the first 2 test out of multiple to come and did well for one and not so well for the other.
It was not ill preparation as I studies really hard for it but brain was blocked from getting upset. The attitude I did not deserve from one that I have done everything I can for. All I was hoping for was support and instead of getting any, I got an attitude I did not deserve.
Lesson learned. Love yourself before you love others. Do not expect what you have done for others to be returned. I will have to manage my emotions better before attempting anything official.
Feeling Jaded and thinking twice about this psychology journey but will continue to hang in there and do what I can.
On the other hand, the silence prevails and the questions in the head surfaces again. Does one treasure the time and process as part of our life journey? Or is it time to pull back and hold back once again?
Yes! Love is Love. 3 simple words and a basic logic that does not reflect real life and challenges. The undeniable connection. The deepest love. Comfort in presence. Yet. The second best. The deafening silence. The uncontrollable pain. It is all too confusing and contradicting.
There is no time to sulk and think which I am thankful for. Multiple Appointments and Assignments to fill the gap this fortnight and probably for awhile. Only the silent ache remains till it no longer holds.
Till then.
-LYAF-
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